This was the last that I hold my grandmother's hands. May 21 of year 2012 she was rushed to the hospital due to hypertension and heat stroke that caused her to be in a coma (brain-dead).
That morning before the tragic event my grandmother cooked FRIED RICE and made me some coffee, this is her daily routine every morning that she woke up very early to prepare everything so when we wake up we'll just eat and go to work. She never failed to remind me to take care when I"m riding the jeepney and be watchful of my stuff, for some people I think they find it annoying but for me? Oh, I just love it because it just shows how she truly care about me. After I ate and prepared everything, I went to her to say goodbye and to "MANO". Usually she would turn to me face to face and kiss my forehead and saying all the same stuff again, but this day is different, she just gave her hands and say no words at all and she's kinda busy checking out her plants, because I'm in a hurry I pay no serious attention on it.
While I was in the office and doing my daily task I felt very uncomfortable, like someone is bothering me on my mind, but I just keep myself busy of my task. Finally, it was my break time already and I checked my unread messages on my phone, I saw a text message from my aunt and I was really suspicious because I find it weird when someone from my family text me, I get too paranoid and think that something bad happened and damn I was right! She said that my grandmother is in ICU at Davao Doctor's Hospital! I was in real pain that time that I can't move a single muscle of my body. I rushed to the hospital to check my Lola and when I got there, all of them are crying and too afraid to go to the ICU, but I've got no choice but to see my Lola's condition. When I got there I saw my Lola with all of these apparatus injected in her hands, mouth, nose and everywhere! I'm in deep pain! I was crying the whole time and I can't say a single word, I can feel the pain that my Lola is suffering from that moment, her face is in deep pain that you cannot recognize her already that she is my Lola.
She's in a coma for 3 days and the doctor said we need to make a decision already if we will gonna continue her life support, of course, as a family, we continued her life support but the doctor said there is no guarantee because my Lola is brain-dead already. We are poor and we have nothing except for our daily food and necessity, but we've never thought about the hospital bill that time because what we want of our Lola to survive.
We asked a sign of her if she wants to let go and forever be in peace, we always talk to her like she's there and listening to us and we keep telling her to fight. After that, the doctor said that my Lola's body is not taking the medication anymore, it's like she doesn't want to take any medicines and we have considered that as a great sign that she wants us to let her go. I know it's very sad to let her go, but it's for her own good.
We are all feeling a little bit sad that we've lost our Lola, a friend, a hero, a mother, a sister. Together we cry as we feel so empty and hold many fears. But my Lola would want us to know she's in a good place and that she'll be watching us all with a smile in her face as we made her so proud, as proud as can be that she has raised such a beautiful and special family. Thinking back now I really must say that I feel so lucky and privileged to have known a Lola this day for in my life, you have played a special part. The memories I will treasure and keep close in my heart. =(
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